Goodbye to Romance

No one can get in the way of what I feel for you – Alicia Keys (No One)

There is a time in life when you have to let go. Let go of something you hold dearly, letting go which is not always easy but when you are left without a choice all you do is back off and leave. It may sound impossible and difficult but live that life and you will know how to cope with it. I know, because I was there and here I am alive, well and still kicking ass. Ass?  Maybe ha-ha

Truth be told, I never consider myself romantic when it comes to a relationship. The reason of it that I don’t really know.  Maybe I do not have the look or the charisma or maybe I don’t have a job or I  could not find a girl to be so romantic about.  Really?  Or, am I contradicting to what I am typing it right now. That in addition, I don’t know. Well maybe I was romantic, THEN. Romantic, how was I? By the way what is being so romantic so good about. That too I don’t know. At some point in life we all come across that road, so madly in love, so romantic, so foolish about one person, so in love. So in love?  That depends on time, time changes so does everyone.

Maybe I think I am too lazy to be romantic, to go around see girls, talk to them, smile or wink or whatever a normal decent guy would do. Or, that is not my way of impressing a girl. Then how is my way of it?. Do I ever have one? It‘s a pretty bold statement for a guy like me to let this out, but better let it out? Out, seriously?  The truth is I am quite, sensitive type but if you take a chance on me you might just get to know the inner me: Witty, adventurous, passionate, loving, loyal. A little bit crazy, a little bit bad and a little bit foolish. But, hey don’t you girls just like that?

As I am typing these very words I am thinking of you with me in some foreign land. Why do I think about you? I could offer a million answers, all true. The truth is I am really in love with you. Now that I’m clear and I’m moving on, going straight and choosing life and you. I am looking forward to it already. We are going to be just like the couples I saw in my dream.  The job, the family, the car, good health, low cholesterol, starter home, leisure wear, luggage, three-piece suite, game shows, junk food, children, walk in the park, 9:00 to 5:00, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension, tax exemption, getting by, looking ahead, till the day we die.

But, why would I want to do a thing like that? Because I chose not to choose any other girl than you. I have chosen you, and the reason? There are no reasons, who needs reason when you have the whole universe with you. Take the prettiest, most beautiful girl you have ever known multiply it by a thousand, compare her with my girl and you are still nowhere near it. She is sparkling, clear as a crystal, tall as a twin tower, like a pure driven snow, in short: the best of the best.

To romance, I bid you goodbye because I think I don’t need to be so into you, look at me now, I am with the real deal now.  The really really great ONE.

After all, am I stupid, so truly, madly, deeply loving you? Well at least maybe I ‘am not that stupid loving you. And remember, this is me to you before signing off this post: I love you and you are the one the only one and no one can get in the way of what I feel for you. This is also true, waiting for the day to come. God Bless US

(Jorhat, 08^th, March 2013)